Healing follows Damage

After what was said, I feel a part of me has died a little, I feel betrayed. There I was thinking you could be stronger than that. I will not bow down. I will not feel like I have been emotionally blackmailed by you. I am stronger than that.

xxLMxx

Slice of Frustration Pie Anyone?

"..Grasp every opportunity, hold onto the memories, but let go when they need to be released. Move over when they ask for room, but hold them close for comfort..."

So, yes, frustration is a big thing at the moment... I find it annoying that you've been given quite an ultimatum yet you proceed to disregard it. It's annoying that instead of slowing down the drinking, or stopping because it could kill you in a matter of hours, you brush it off saying "but I can't help it. I can't just have one drink, because when I do, I'm hooked, I need more. I'm gonna die eventually anyway." It's that complete lack of contol that scares me. Don't you care that others will be affected by this!? Don't you care that if you do end up in hospital fighting of dead, so many people will be devestaded!? You should care. I know this probably means nothing to you as drinking has always meant more than me but why can't you just stop for a bit. When you were here, the pain was fine. You had a few and the pain came back. You were nearly hospitalised when you went back home. Yes you were given medication for the ulcer but don't treat it like it's a complete and utter joke. Yes, it's all very well not trying to get depressed about it and trying too see the lighter side behind it, but for once be serious about it. Yes it won't go away, but stop saying that a few drinks won't hurt. They won't. They'll just kill you instead. You're my best friend. I don't want you to die soon from something stupid like alcohol. I'm scared for you and your addiction.

Rant over

xxLMxx