'We move fast, we move slow, we twist, we turn, we tumble.. But somewhere, sometime, the ride must stop eventually...'
So the first cut has been made, now to get going on the rest. Of the mental weeds mind, not anything else...but lets not travel down that route eh! I'm stubborn, I have to be able to do this on my own you know. I hate feeling dependant on him, he always tries fixing me, and now, I have to fix myself. It makes me feel week, helpless and just, well, stupid. I can't even help myself and yet I expect him to do it for me. I can't do that to him anymore, it feels like the only reason we are together is because he likes to fix me and for no other reason.. I know that sounds self-centred, selfish and insecure, but maybe I am. I need to figure myself out better first. I need to know myself better and understand myself better. Maybe then I can stop being selfish, and can stop focusing on my insecurities. Thats why it's done. I had to nip it at the not so bud-dy bud. It's not fair on him. I don't even know what I want anymore..
Here's to a fresh start for those who want one in this new coming year. And if you don't want a fresh start, then may your continuation be fruitfull and joyous.
Much love
xxLMxx
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