Confessions

• I hate confessions (I'm a R.C. wtf I know)
• I'm scared about lots of things even though I appear the opposite to people.
• I'm terrified of spiders
• I'm scared of rejection
• I'm scared of failing, from computer games to my exams to my family...
• I can be a difficult person to read, yet I am trusted by so many people
• I find it very difficult to open up - it's different opening up to the faceless internet, compared with people
• I'm a little addicted to peircings. I currently have 8, and have got 4/5 more planned for when I earn money
• I find it difficult to trust others though earn trust easily
• I'm frightened about not getting over L and not being able to move on
• I'm scared I'm not strong enough for people
• I want my own loving family with a loving husband and a few kids
• I would love to becoune a trained councellor
• I have contemplated suicide, though I'm too much of a coward to do anything about it
• I tend to wallow in self-pity 
• I loath myself sometimes
• I love harcerstwo, though I dont have any energy left to fight, so I'm glad I'm not going on zlot
• I worry constantly about fitting in with friends
• I feel more comfortable exchanging crass comments with my guy friends than talking to my girl mates about clothes/guys/make-up
• I love coaching althletics. It brings me such enjoyment when 'my' athletes succeed where I have failed
• I don't have the energy to fight with people though I do have the energy to keep pushing myself
• I always put myself down
• I always think the worst will happen in situations/in peoples replies, just to I can feel the rush of happiniess when things go right
• I am very insecure
• I always think about what I could have done to make things better (my situation with L/harcerskie zbiorki/athletics sessions) and so I fail to see where I went right
• I am terrified of being alone
• I ramble too often...

xxLMxx